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Love Letters to Small Joys

1/21/2026

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I started off the year stating that I wanted to romanticize my life intentionally. Almost immediately, the reality of another new year settled in, and I felt weighed down by it. As I’ve spent the last few blogs brainstorming topics and ideas, I’ve worked hard not to make those weights the center of my posts. While I love having an introspective space where people can hopefully feel seen and relate, I already spend so much time carrying those thoughts that I simply don’t want to live inside them here. At the same time, I don’t want to pretend that life is all rainbows and unicorns either.
As I took notes, wrote out half-thoughts, and quietly argued with myself, it occurred to me that I had a fairly fatal flaw in my thinking. Not talking about the troubles in my life isn’t avoidance. It’s setting a boundary with myself. And romanticizing my life isn’t pretending everything is perfect. It’s choosing to focus on the wonder of things.
To me, one of the most romantic things in the world is a love letter. I blame Jane Austen for this. Across her novels, she uses letters again and again, often at the most pivotal moments, especially when her male characters can no longer say what needs to be said out loud. In Pride and Prejudice, Mr. Darcy writes to Elizabeth after she rejects him, not to persuade her, but to take responsibility and explain himself. In Persuasion, Captain Wentworth writes to Anne when he realizes he can no longer remain silent out of fear of rejection.
I think the thing I love most about letters is that they carry the weight of love, remorse, reflection, forgiveness, devotion, gratitude, friendship, to name a few, in a gentle and meaningful way. So that’s what I want this blog to be. A small collection of love letters to a few of the things that add a little wonder to my life.
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💌 Dear Books,
We didn’t begin well. For a long time, you felt like an obligation. Deadlines, assigned chapters, discussions where I worried more about being wrong than about being moved. You were never cruel, but I misunderstood your purpose.
Thank you for waiting.
When I finally found you again, you didn’t ask for performance. You asked only that I show up. You opened doors to worlds where good still wins, where love is allowed to be dramatic, and where magic feels as ordinary as breathing. You let me leave this world for a while without asking me to justify why I needed to go.
You are patient in a way few things are. I can leave and return, and you stay unchanged. Still offering shelter and still holding wonder. You remind me that sometimes the most meaningful conversations happen in silence, with nothing but pages between us.
I don’t come to you to be taught. I come to you to remember that the world is larger than the room I’m standing in.
With love,
Me
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💌 Dear Music,
You have always known how to reach me.
You don’t pull me out of my feelings. You sit beside me in them and quietly change their shape. You make light days feel brighter, like a window rolled down on a back road. You soften heavy ones, filling the space just enough so it doesn’t feel empty.
I love your rituals. The way the world fades when I slide my headphones on. The way a single note signals that I can relax. You arrive without asking permission, saying what needs to be felt when words would stumble.
There is comfort in knowing you will meet me wherever I am. Loud or quiet. Focused or frayed. You remind me that some truths are better carried on sound than spoken aloud.
Thank you for being a steady presence when everything else feels sharp.
Always,
Me
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💌 Dear Writing,
You are the quietest of my loves, and the most faithful.
You meet me with ease whenever and wherever I reach for you. On the couch, wrapped in a blanket, a cup of tea cooling nearby, dogs snoring softly at my side. You never rush me, instead letting the cursor blink patiently while I catch up to my own thoughts.
Sometimes I don’t know what I’m trying to say when I begin, but you allow me the grace of starting anyway. You hold space for half-formed ideas until they settle into something honest. You remind me that clarity often arrives only after stillness.
You are where I go when speaking feels inadequate. When I need to choose my words carefully. When the truth deserves time to take shape. You don’t ask me to be impressive. Only sincere.
I don’t write to be remembered. I write because you remind me that I exist beyond the noise.
Yours truly,
Me
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